Being Vegan, Finding Motivation, Living Purposefully and Being Grateful for What We Have

I’ve been on a vegan diet for more or less two years, but I never really followed the diet too strictly. Why? Because it didn’t resonate with me entirely. I felt like being vegan puts you in a category I wouldn’t wanna belong in. Of course I know that it’s the best and only way, not only for the animals and the planet, but for my body as well. And I am following the vegan movement that’s growing all over the world, but especially in the US. People like Rich Roll, Jeff Morgan and countless others are promoting this lifestyle successfully, there are more and more vegan restaurants, cafés, supermarkets, and even gyms popping up all around….

… and I am stuck. Due to my work (I’m in the military) I live in the middle of nowhere, roughly one hour from the next big city and all of this seems to be only accessible via the internet. In this clip, Nimai Delgado, a vegan bodybuilder from L.A., shows how he finds motivation – motivation for the day, motivation to follow his dreams – and it all seems so easy seeing him running through L.A. in the early morning hours.

But I am stuck. Yes, I can wake up an hour early as well and go for a run before heading to work, but it just doesn’t feel like I’m part of something.
Tho I wanna be part of it.

I want to change not only my body by sticking to a clean, whole foods, plant-based diet.
I want to change how others think about being vegan.
I want to be part of it.
I want to matter.

But how, if no one is listening?
But how, if no one cares?
But how, if I’m here and not elsewhere?


Golden Fall Weekend

I haven’t been posting for way too long. First I never really knew what to write about and second I thought that there ain’t anything special going on in my life that’s worth sharing. Well, at least the second point was wrong – there’s always something going that’s worth talking about; it’s not about the big events, but rather the small stuff (I think I mentioned that before already).

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Last month I decided to rent a flat in a nice residential area in Hamburg; I was excited as I felt that it would give me more freedom and independence, but I was also insecure about how to decorate it. I could never just buy furniture at the big stores (eg. IKEA) and make that my home; I wanted it to be more personal. I didn’t get this far – I got some nice things like a bed and table with chairs and an area rug, but then moved out (or at least cancelled the lease) after sleeping in it for one night. It made me anxious; I didn’t know what to do with myself at that place when on vacation – next week I’m off and knowing that I’d be “stuck at my place” made me really uncomfortable. So I told the landlord that I’m gonna move out again. This made me feel better; not only do I safe a lot of money each month, but it also gives me the freedom to go wherever I want to and do whatever I want to. Nonetheless I do want to have my own place (decorating and baking cookies for Xmas sounds fabulous), but it wasn’t the right place, the right town…
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